BlogOctober 29, 2013 10:55 PM ET

Bleeding Through's Brandan Schieppati: "Is it ever going to be enough?"

As you almost certainly know, Bleeding Through will be disbanding after one final U.S. tour this fall. Just days away from hitting the road, Bleeding Through vocalist Brandan Schieppati apparently had a few things he needed to get off his chest. In a new entry on his blog titled "Is it ever going to be enough?," Schieppati had the following to say:

Why did I start Bleeding Through in 1999? I recently started asking myself that question as I start getting ready to leave for our first leg of the US farewell tour. Did I start this band so people can scrutinize the music and our image? Did I start this band so I could see die hard supporters turn into die hard haters when a new trend came through? Did I start this band so I could create jobs for my friends only to see the actual members of the band struggle to pay our bills? Did I start this band so I could be faced with business decisions and to lose friends? Did I start this band to have competition with other bands and fight for the same scraps off the table? Did I start this band so I lose touch with my family and friends because of the amount of time spent on the road? Did I start this band so I could become bitter at the music industry? Did I start this band so I could sink into depression and battle being Bipolar which led me to hide my emotions from the ones closest to me and often times think about erasing myself? Did I start this band so we could pour all our emotion into our music and be so proud of it so people can go out of their way to tell you they hate it? Did I start this band so we could starve and eat off of other people tables and dumpster dive and spend all of our money to make it to the next show only to have it canceled? No No No! Did I start touring to sleep in a Van without heat in the middle of the winter and sleep on bathroom floors and truck stops cause it was warm only to be called a "rockstar" the first time Bleeding Through stepped off a tour bus? The answers are all FUCK NO!

I'll tell you why I started this band. I was a 19 year old kid that hated his reflection in the mirror and hated himself. I had major emotional issues that I hide from everyone and music was my release and together with my friends we got to create music for each other and expel all of our emotional issues through that music. I was lost and depressed with no way out. It was either write my issues on paper and scream them into a mic or expel my life with a bullet through my head. That is why I started this band!

Now getting ready to embark on our first leg of the US farewell tour it seems what we are doing is still not good enough. Even though we are 100% doing this tour for the ones that have supported us through out the years we are still getting backlash. I understand that we may not be playing your city on this tour and we apologize. We are playing the places that we could find promoters to book us a show. Plain and simple. In response to not playing certain towns on this tour we have gotten comments like "you were my favorite band but now I am going to burn your records", "thanks for letting your fans down" and "you guys are probably just going to the places that you make the most money". Seeing comments like this really put things into perspective to me now. My response to those comments is FUCK YOU! If we aren't worth it to drive a few miles away from your city to see Bleeding Through one more time then so be it. We are going to play the cities we are booked in in front of people who give a shit about our music. We are going to play hard and fast like it's our last time on that stage because guess what? It's going to be our last time. Hope to see you at the shows. If not I refuse to lose sleep over it.

I'm going to end this with a quote from Paul Rudd's character in the movie Forgetting Sara Marshall "when life hands you lemons say fuck the lemons and bail"


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anonymous 10/29/2013 8:05:55 PM

He needs to quit crying and finish this tour so we never have to hear from him again.

anonymous 10/29/2013 8:15:22 PM

second. brandon is stoked for prozac

anonymous 10/29/2013 8:16:24 PM

I'm going to end this with a quote from Paul Rudd's character in the movie Forgetting Sara Marshall

anonymous 10/29/2013 8:24:07 PM

don't worry trustkill's got his back stfu and go listen to AFI

anonymous 10/29/2013 8:30:12 PM


zerofender 10/29/2013 8:38:41 PM

Does it really make people feel better to vent on the Internet? It's just going to increase the troll Factor.

anonymous 10/29/2013 8:41:01 PM

anonymous posted 8 minutes ago don't worry trustkill's got his back stfu and go listen to AFI

anonymous 10/29/2013 8:50:30 PM


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anonymous 10/29/2013 9:10:33 PM

Someone take a trip to Wal-Mart for Brandon; he seems to be "Bleeding Through". Huehuehuehue

anonymous 10/29/2013 9:28:56 PM

Bleeding Poo

anonymous 10/29/2013 9:53:17 PM

Did I start the band to get butt hurt about internet trolls? I'm going to end this with a quote from the trolls character in the movie internetflip "Oh you took offense to something said on the internet? You must be new here."

xbumpx 10/29/2013 10:08:02 PM

anonymous posted 1 hour ago HOW CAN HE BE POSTING THIS IF HE DIED IN A PLANE CRASH 10,000 TIMES. lol holy crap

anonymous 10/29/2013 10:24:55 PM

Immediately after posting this, he died in a plane crash. I am 'sertain'.

DrMartinLutherKingJr 10/29/2013 10:41:18 PM

suicide > making bleeding through records

anonymous 10/29/2013 11:36:37 PM

I'm driving 200 miles to see Bleeding Through Brandon. I'd drive twice that to see your farewell tour Brandon. fck lemons Brandon. I'm a big fan of BT's first 3 albums Brandon. Let's stick with those albums during the set in Louisville Tuesday Brandon. The kids don't know what they're talking about Brandon. 80 percent of them were in 5th grade when Portrait of a Goddess came out Brandon. Their opinion doesn't count because they're drunk with STD's Brandon. See you Tuesday Brandon. Love Brandon.

Chicken_gang_bang 10/30/2013 12:15:33 AM

Lol, what a twat

anonymous 10/30/2013 12:52:27 AM

Newsflash: the vast majority of humanity is cruel and wants you to fail for absolutely no reason at all. More at 11.

anonymous 10/30/2013 12:58:19 AM

The last Bleeding Through record is actually sick as fck, too bad all you pussies turned around and pretended to have been a Deathwish kid from the start and forgot about the YL shirts and hair straighteners in your closest. gaygits

anonymous 10/30/2013 1:39:35 AM

people who bitch about bands not playing their city are annoying. if i can drive 2+ hours away for a show, you can too. transportation does exist retards

anonymous 10/30/2013 3:29:42 AM

I would honestly go just to mosh to love lost one more time. Idgaf about the band or the members, but that is one of the best songs ever. Thanks for writing it gays.

anonymous 10/30/2013 5:18:26 AM

he shouldve just stuck playing with the Montreal Expos when he had the opportunity.

SuckMeBeautiful 10/30/2013 6:16:07 AM

Play Portait all the way through and you'll make the 16 year old version of myself happy beyond belief. Will be there either way. *Slowly Pours out 40oz.*

anonymous 10/30/2013 7:31:07 AM

What a turd. It's obvious you didn't start this band for any other reason than to have 16 year old kids stroke your massive ego. Be grateful the same kids, who are now adults will take time out of their busy schedules of being being responsible human beings will come to see your band that made the same record about you dying 1000 times.

anonymous 10/30/2013 7:48:35 AM

Why did you start Bleeding Through in 1999?

anonymous 10/30/2013 8:06:01 AM

I dont know whats worse this or the dvd where he cries about getting cheated on when he was 16. I admit, in 2003 I was somewhat into this band, but this guy is and always will be a crying pssy.

anonymous 10/30/2013 8:39:20 AM

At least this shit is honest. -Chad Fjerstad

anonymous 10/30/2013 8:41:01 AM

playing in a mediocre metalcore band for pre-pubescent kids. no one can understand the sacrifices made.

anonymous 10/30/2013 9:03:16 AM

This faux hawk gypsy wasnt doing anyone any favors. Dumpster diving is a sign to hang it up you effeminate, attention-fiending borderline.

anonymous 10/30/2013 9:28:01 AM

there's a lot of lol here.

f28r06a42n12k 10/30/2013 9:38:33 AM

I just heard this guy died in a plane crash at 11:07AM today. RIP. Thoughts and prayers go out to his family.

anonymous 10/30/2013 10:15:12 AM

eighteen visions is stoked.

GORILLATRISCUITS 10/30/2013 10:32:33 AM

honestly, i am going to see there final show in NJ. i have followed these dudes since day 1 when the "scene" was a "scene" i wouldnt consider them to be one of my favorite bands, but they were part of something that was a part of me for so long. BT, 18V, and Throwdown. the infamous Orange County bands. i miss what hardcore, metal, metalcore, whatever the fck you noobz call it nowadays, stood for and meant. so to Brendan and the rest of the BT guys, I'll see you in NJ.

anonymous 10/30/2013 11:40:30 AM

Another one on steroids . Pump that iron bro...

anonymous 10/30/2013 11:51:56 AM

Can someone please call this guy a wahmbulance?

anonymous 10/30/2013 12:21:22 PM

Must have been caught curling in the squat rack.

anonymous 10/30/2013 3:08:53 PM

Didn't they sell 300,000 copies of This Is Love, This Is Murderous? I don't believe for a second that you dumpster-dived.

anonymous 10/30/2013 3:37:17 PM

Bleeding Through isn't breaking up. They changed their name to Winds of Plague.

anonymous 10/30/2013 4:50:54 PM

He should make a youtube video out of this nagging crap. Band has been boring for years, and his new band is wack arnolds.

anonymous 10/30/2013 5:19:29 PM

anonymous posted 4 hours ago Must have been caught curling in the squat rack. FOR THE WIN

flush 10/30/2013 7:51:39 PM

he died in a plane crash on his way to china for a show

anonymous 10/30/2013 9:24:21 PM

edgar allen poe

conduit 10/30/2013 11:47:00 PM

If the dude had a sense of humour he would have included "did I start this band just to die in a plane crash on the way to China for a show? Did I start this band so I'd have to drive 600 miles to support kittie at a show?"

anonymous 10/31/2013 12:25:28 AM

shut the fck up you whiny, self-righteous little bitch.

anonymous 10/31/2013 10:37:57 AM

did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?did I start this band?

thetowerofrome 10/31/2013 3:57:52 PM

So many lolz.

DaveTech 11/4/2013 2:09:40 PM

You know what?! F*** this! *Logs off Scotttrade for good* *Opens closet and removes Seven String from sweet snake skin case* THERES ONLY ONE LIFE TO LIVE YOUVE GOT TO TAKE IT BY THE HORNS WHILST THROWING UP THE HORNS. FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS LIKE A DREAM WALKER.