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Gloria and Max Cavalera

Gloria Cavalera, wife of Soulfly and ex-Sepultura frontman, Max Cavalera, has opened up about her family's four-year stalking ordeal at the hands of a crazed fan. Here is her account, originally posted with some family photos at Gloriacavalera.com. I'm not sure how you live like that for several years, but somehow they did.

In 1998-'99, I began to feel someone was living in our backyard. It may have even been 1997, not sure. It was definitely after Dana's untimely death. I would find men's underwear near our jacuzzi and joke about a bum bathing as we slept. Little did I know, it was true…

I began receiving messages on my office phone from a strange man; I will call him Leo, to avoid telling his actual name. Leo began with simple questions like "Does Max live here?' "Are you the manager of Max?" "Did Dana live here?" After a few calls, I began to feel a bit unnerved and very suspicious. Next came letters, first to Max, then to me and after a couple years, to Kristen, my friend and Dana's girlfriend.

One day, Leo caught me on the phone and filled me in on his 'quest.' He had taken a Greyhound Bus from Florida to Phoenix, to search for Max. He was an overly obsessed fan and wanted to meet him badly. Leo was also unemployed and homeless. As luck would have it, when he arrived at the bus station, he met someone who was also a fan. The young man told Leo he knew a girl who had gone to high school with Dana; maybe they could find her. Leo said it took some months, but she was eventually located.

The young girl had actually been to our home once and gave Leo vague descriptions of our house and how to find it. "Just go to Shea Road and walk block after block and look in all the living room windows," she said. "Eventually, you will see a wall of masks and a blue light from a big screen TV." "That's the house."

It took Leo over 3 months of strolling and peaking in windows, but he eventually found our house. Not having anywhere to live at the time, he decided our yard would be his lodging, our jacuzzi his bath tub and the fruit from our many fruit trees would be his meals. He lived for one full year in our backyard before his phone calls began! He would peak in all our windows and watch our family. He learned our routines and knew I would get up early. Every day, he made certain to be gone before I woke up.

One day, while working in the office, I received a call from a homeless shelter. It was one of the women counselors. She confirmed my identity and shared hers with me. Then she said "I don't want to sound crazy, but have you ever seen the movie, THE FAN?" I said I had. She went on to describe one of the drifters there as being obsessed with our family and said she felt he could be a danger. I asked if it was Leo and she said it was. I thanked her and hung up. Things had just stepped up a notch!

Leo began to be more assertive. He began calling more and more and leaving drawings and more letters at our front door. He switched his obsession from Max to me. I began to catch him outside our home, in the front yard. Max even did an instore autograph signing, and in the daily newspaper story about the meet and greet, there was Leo, in the photo, right behind Max.

One night, very late, the doorbell rang and rang. I looked in the security cameras and there he was. It was Leo! I called a friend to come over and he called the police. By the time they arrived, Leo was in our back yard at Max's statue of Jesus. Leo had lit many candles and was rubbing 2 coins together. He was doing brujeria!

He told the police Dana had sent him to protect me and he seemed mad at Max for something. He said the coins had scorpions on them and foretold a bad omen. He wanted to speak with me, but I refused. The police took him to jail. On the day he was released, I caught him hiding in our front yard! We could never have him arrested again or served because he was homeless and sleeping in parks, since our yard was no longer safe for him. There was no address.

One day, some friends of our children told us that he was also following them home on the city bus! This was getting out of control!! All the while, he continued to call me and write letters. He switched his obsession from me to Kristen, and then her letters began. They were especially frightening since he wrote things like, "Dana wants us all in the same room."

After 4 years of this constant fear, as I was walking on stage left at a Soulfly concert, an arm came around my throat from the back. I knew it was him immediately, from the smell of homelessness. He whispered in my ear that I would hear from him by phone, and then he slipped away. This happened in a packed venue, near the stage while the band was playing!! He was smooth and slippery. I felt lost!

Then silence…no calls, no letters. I answered the phone one day and it was Leo. He said he was calling to ask forgiveness from me. He said he had been meeting with a priest and had realized it was wrong to stalk us and peak in our bedroom windows (!) and frighten us. I said "That's it?" And he said "Yes, that's it." He disappeared as fast as he had once appeared.

We never heard from Leo again, but often times I felt as if his eyes were behind me, watching every move. Like a dark shadow, attached but silent, stalkers suck!! Always watch your back, Students!!

Class dismissed…..

A week ago that YouTube guy we keep posting about, Jared Dines, put out an amusing video of some alternative names for metal genres. Apparently Dines didn't poke fun of enough bands, because he's back with a sequel, which you can find below. I think I hear some Rob Zombie, Emmure, and Beartooth. Oh, and the Asking Alexandria bit should get a chuckle out of anyone who follows the news.

A new Boxscore report is out and among its listed events are shows featuring Of Mice & Men, Limp Bizkit, Saosin, New Found Glory, and Attila. You can check out the facts below (by the way, the House of Blues in Boston seems to do solid business).

Artist/Event Venue City/State Event Dates Gross Sales Attend/
Linkin Park, Of Mice & Men O2 Arena London, U.K. Nov. 23-24, 2014 $2,057,830 26,922 /
$82.16, $72.77, $39.12
Linkin Park, Of Mice & Men Phones 4u Arena Manchester, U.K. Nov. 22, 2014 $1,096,450 15,192 /
$77.59, $68.19
Limp Bizkit House of Blues Boston, Mass. Oct. 10, 2014 $96,632 2,364 /
Saosin, Anthony Green Emo's Austin, Texas Jan. 24, 2015 $40,809 1,500 /
$30, $27
Skinny Puppy House of Blues Boston, Mass. Nov. 30, 2014 $27,755 854 /
Yellowcard, Memphis May Fire House of Blues Boston, Mass. Nov. 4, 2014 $26,599 1,045 /
New Found Glory House of Blues Boston, Mass. Oct. 16, 2014 $26,404 1,177 /
Circa Survive House of Blues Boston, Mass. Nov. 5, 2014 $25,770 1,225 /
Attila House of Blues Boston, Mass. Dec. 14, 2014 $23,178 1,051 /
Escape The Fate, Glamour of the Kill, New Years Day Underground Koln, Germany Oct. 22, 2014 $10,347 450 /
Escape The Fate, Glamour of the Kill, New Years Day Logo Hamburg, Germany Oct. 21, 2014 $6,835 290 /
$31.92, $22.98
Escape The Fate, Glamour of the Kill, New Years Day Lido Berlin, Germany Oct. 19, 2014 $6,725 286 /
$28.06, $22.96
Escape The Fate, Glamour of the Kill, New Years Day Kellerklub Stuttgart, Germany Oct. 15, 2014 $6,441 280 /
$27.91, $22.84
As Blood Runs Black El Plaza Condesa Mexico City, Mexico Jan. 17, 2015 $6,198 473 /
Escape The Fate, Glamour of the Kill, New Years Day Strom Munich, Germany Oct. 13, 2014 $4,980 214 /
$27.78, $22.73

Black Sheep Wall with former vocalist Trae Malone

Today Black Sheep Wall released their brand new album, I'm Going To Kill Myself. While recording said album, the band apparently ousted vocalist Trae Malone, replacing him with bassist Brandon Gillichbauer.

Malone says that despite his dismissal, he is still featured on some of the final mixes. To get even (albeit, playfully), he has released one of the album's tracks with his own vocals. Here is Malone's explanation:

"We recorded the song 'White Pig' last year, and the band decided to kick me after the first vocal session. When I heard the final mixes, to my surprise I was still featured on a few tracks. Getting them to include my credits for my parts in the begining seemed impossible, so I knew then that I had to release the same song, on the same day with my raw, uncut vocal tracks. I love these guys for life but let's get it poppin. #shotsfired #blackpig"

Here is "Black Pig" (if you haven't heard the album version, "White Pig," stream it here):

Denis Shaforostov and Danny Worsnop

The peeps over at Alternative Press are claiming they've heard from multiple sources that the new singer of Asking Alexandria is Denis Shaforostov (pictured above with recently departed AA vocalist Danny Worsnop), formerly of Make Me Famous, and currently of Down & Dirty.

We're not sure how credible AP's sources are, but this certainly sounds believable to me. Shaforostov has both the sound and the look that would likely appeal to fans of Asking Alexandria (check out an AA vocal cover from him below). Moreover, both of his aforementioned bands were under contract with Sumerian Records, which is of course Asking Alexandria's record label. Shaforostov knows the guys in AA; in fact, Down & Dirty's first show was with Asking Alexandria.

Also noteworthy is a message Shaforostov posted on Instagram a day prior to Worsnop's departure announcement:

"There's such thing as karma and magic in this world. The hardest work will always pay off no matter how many of these fucks have ever tried to bring you down on your way. You never know when and how but trust me, your door will open and the future will be yours for the taking -- just wait and see."

Either way, we'll find out soon enough.

Texas In July drummer Adam Gray has unveiled his drum cover of the Eminem track "Rap God." Gray calls the effort an "improvised playthrough," adding that he is "intentionally mimicking the lyrics on the drums." You can see what he came up with below. I'm certainly not an expert on drummers covering rap songs, but it seems like an admirable effort.

Remember Chad Fjerstad? After playing bass for Midwest metalcore band Dead To Fall, Fjerstad spent a little time in the porn industry, in addition to releasing music with a group called Children. Fast forward three years, and Fjerstad is still making music, primarily via his long-running solo project, Choad.

This past week he released a new music video for a song titled "One Way To Find Out." Directed by Fjerstad and Geneva Jacuzzi, the low budget video is amazingly odd (I can't even begin describe the track itself). After watching it twice, I still don't know if I'm supposed to laugh, get angry, or call my mom.

Satanic school bus?
Source: WMC Action News 5 viewer

So, a Cordova, Tennessee woman snapped a photo of the back of a Durham School District bus, and noticed that the bus's brake lights form the shape of a pentagram in each light. This did not sit well with said woman, reported WMC Action News 5 earlier this month.

"Anyone who fears a God, if not God and Jesus Christ, should be outraged," she told WMC, who is not sharing her name because of subsequent death threats. Regardless, she says "Christians should be outraged that a symbol that looks like a pentagram would be allowed in the design of a vehicle used to transport children to public schools."

Neither the school district nor its transportation services department have commented on the brake lights, so we're not sure why the pentagram exists, but I guess it doesn't really matter, because they're not technically Satanic. In fact, WMC also spoke to a Wiccan, who told them that it's not even an "evil" symbol. "Find out what it really means before you start getting riled up and all worked up about something," Jo Applewhite said. "Wiccans, we believe in God, we believe in Jesus, but we don't call him God."

At press time, Lambgoat was unable to confirm whether or not this is the bus that take's Tommy Araya's children to school.

(thanks, Metalsucks)

This week Jared Dines put out a new video called "Alternative genre names." Some of you think this guy is funny, some of you don't. I tend to think he is (though, contrary to popular belief, we don't post about every video he uploads).

Anyway, in this new video Dines pokes fun at a few bands without naming names (aside from For Today). A few are obvious (e.g. Attila), while others less so (e.g. The Devil Wears Prada). Check it out and laugh, or, bitch about how this guy sucks.

Robb Flynn of Machine Head

Machine Head vocalist/guitarist Robb Flynn posted a lengthy and thought-provoking piece on Facebook today detailing his thoughts on racism in America, and how far we still have to go. Flynn also took a shot at All That Remains frontman Phil Labonte and his "ignorant ass world views."

Here's the full post.

I'm scared.

I've spent more than a few hours debating whether to write this General Journal.

I never do that. I just sit down and start writing, not really knowing what to write and eventually something clicks, and I go with it.

So here goes…I just watched the movie "Selma." If you've never heard of it, it's the story of black civil rights activist Martin Luther King Jr. and his non-violent marches and protests that took place in Selma, Alabama. This happened in the years following President Johnson's de-segregation of the south, when black people were supposed to finally be able to vote, but ultimately they were denied that right for several more years. Who voted against it? Well it was done by the still extremely racist, local and state governments including Alabama's notoriously racist Governor George Wallace.

While so many emotions ran through my mind while watching this, surprisingly the thing I cannot get out of my mind was the violence. Shocking doesn't even begin to describe the absolute savagery. I mean we're talking "Passion of the Christ"-level shocking! The sheer viciousness of people at that time is something I hope many of them feel great shame for in their old age.

The film breaks down all the legal mumbo-jumbo that went into keeping black people unable to vote. It's really something to see the government's tactics ranging from blatant intimidation to the more "subtle" state funded "voucher system," in which you had to have someone "vouch" for you to vote!? But with a glitch…of course. That glitch was if no one within one hundred miles had ever voted (like every black person in the area) then it was impossible to get someone to "vouch" for you, thus… you couldn't vote. It was legislated racism and in the sickest of ways, and it was admittedly, very clever.

Everyone should go see his movie.

But no one will.

It's already bombed. Despite winning many awards, according to my "Flixter" app, it's only grossed $9 million (compare that to the gajillionth pro-war movie "American Sniper" which grossed $90 million). But watching "Selma" on Martin Luther King day, somehow seemed like the right thing to do, especially in these confusing, fucked up times. I needed to try and make sense of this, to make better somehow, to figure out an answer to what is going on these days.

But there was no answer.

It was depressing, and sad, and horrible, and uplifting, and ultimately powerful.

So why am I debating it?

I put up a post on my Instagram about a week ago of a photo of a sign inside The Metro in Oakland where we were rehearsing for our Evening With tour, that read "Black Lives Matter – Oakland to Ferguson". There was a surprising amount a vitriol pointed at me in the comments. Lots of posts about "good job alienating fans on the eve of a tour", and how "they wouldn't be spending their hard-earned money on my CD or my tour" and that, "the next time something goes down, they're going to make signs saying "White Lives Matter", (because apparently white people have been equally oppressed for a few hundred years).

They wouldn't spend their money on my tour…

That one hit me.

Apparently metal musicians aren't supposed to have opinions on the issues of the day, we're just supposed to "rock and party bro". And while we still do that with the best of 'em, all of my favorite bands had some kind of moral consciousness. From Black Sabbath's anti-Vietnam war screed "War Pigs", to Metallica's "Disposable Heroes" and "One", to System Of A Down's "Sad Statue" or "BYOB", to Bob Dylan's "Masters Of War", to Springsteen's' "Born In The USA", and John Lennon's "Imagine".

If you think about it, musicians and artists are probably more affected by the world than most, hence our ability to channel things and feelings into music and art.

Three nights ago we got into lengthy discussion about Ferguson and the Eric Garner murder. It's a divisive subject. Some folks feel Michael Brown got what he deserved, some don't. That case more than any, is the toughest to call. Did the cop act in defense? Could he have done something different? Did an 18 year black man, high on nothing more than marijuana, (and who granted, had aggressively just stole cigars to roll blunts with), really reach into a cop car and try and grab the officer's gun? Or, did the cop just lose his wits and blow an unarmed black man away? I've read a lot on both sides, including the police officers testimony and the friend of Michael Brown's, and both seems a little dubious. It's really fucking hard to make heads or tails of.

But we were all in agreement that the Eric Garner's murder was absolutely and unequivocally wrong. Though Garner was no angel, 5 police officers should not have choked an unarmed black man to death, (with a banned chokehold), who said "I can't breathe" 11 times, and whose only crime was selling un-taxed cigarettes. And the grand jury clearing of both officers involved in record speed. And then there's the 12 year shooting of Tamir Rice by an officer deemed unstable by his previous police force that was even more disturbing.

We talked about it more the next day, and the conversation evolved into the bigger picture. About income inequality, about Wall Street's sniping of of American Corporations in the name of shareholder profits, and how unbelievably powerful the media is nowadays, and how (subliminally clever) they are at repeating the headline (no matter how off-base) over and over again, knowing that if they say it enough times, it'll eventually sink in. Like how "protests" and "die-in's" were suddenly deemed "riots". Like how, of the 300 people arrested for not "clearing the streets" only "2? were for assault or destruction of property.

We talked about how the rich are getting richer, and the poor are getting poorer, and the middle class, is stuck eroding away in the middle, all while we are stuck in 14 year-long-war that's cost us trillions of dollars. That we're a country willing to spend millions of dollars a day to bring freedom to Iraq, and yet, we just played in New Mexico where many of the Navajo Nation Indian reservations (the original American's) don't even have basic needs like running water or electricity.

What's even more surprising, is the a very small but very vocal minority of the police themselves. An Indiana police officer sold T-shirts saying "Breathe Easy. Don't Break the Law." A veteran San Jose Police Officer, Phillip White, tweeted: "Threaten me or my family and I will use my God given and law appointed right and duty to kill you. ?#?CopLivesMatter?".

And here's where all the naysayers will rant that I'm "anti-police".

And that would be completely missing the mark, because I also was deeply moved by the story by the black police officer whose brother was a junkie, and how it deeply affected his life to want to do justice for the world, and yet how he's reminded of racism whenever he walks through a store in his street clothes, and how the undercover still follows him around.

And then there's this:

Did you hear about the police officers in Florida that were active Ku Klux Klan members? Hactivist group "Anonymous" broke the story, and when they did, the chief of police fired the officers immediately (an admission of guilt if there ever was one). That's right, active KKK in the police dept.! Though this is apparently not illegal?!

Are you really going to say black men still getting targeted is a coincidence? That white people have it just as bad?

And then as I was writing this, someone sent me Phil Labonte from All That Remains ignorant ass world views from his Revolver magazine cover story. WTF!? Metalsucks.net rightfully slammed him, and good for them! And shame on Revolver for not!

So yeah, I decided that watch "Selma" on Martin Luther King Day in America, in Texas.

When we were talking earlier that day, I remembered that when I bought my second house (which I lost when the bubble burst a few years ago, and my family and I had to Short Sell) we inherited all the original paperwork from this 1950's house. Right there in the paperwork, it said, "no negroes shall live in this house". It was kinda shocking, especially by liberal California standards.

A big point I hear repeated is that "black people don't want to work, and that if they just picked themselves up by their bootstraps, they'd make good", and yet here I have a document from California saying that even if they DID pick themselves up by their bootstraps, the city would not let them live there. Real Estate agents used to get fired for even showing houses to black people in the the neighborhood.

All legislated by the local govt, the county, the state… the nation.

But we have a black president!

It's only been 50 years since black people could even vote, do you really think we've come that far? That the old ways have completely died.

They haven't.

Isn't it interesting that 50 years on from MLK's assassination, they still haven't found his killer?

Could you imagine someone like FOX blowhard Bill O' Riley (a high profile white person, but not a politician) getting assassinated and not finding the killer for 50 years??!! People would be incredulous!

And so I sat there thinking…


Writing this journal… and so I decided to write down the words "I'm scared", to own what I was feeling.

Scared of what other bands were gonna think of me writing this.

Scared of what fans were going to think of this.

Scared because here I am in Texas, then New Orleans and then Florida and then Atlanta (where the last time we headlined there some asshole in the front row kept yelling out "Kill Niggers!") and I'm about to put out a Journal on racism in America, with people already threatening to not go to my concerts.

But you know what?

Fuck it.

I believe in this to my fucking bones.

Where are the god damn protest songs? Where are the "War, What Is It Good For's"? Where are the "Fight The Power's"? Where are the white metal bands protesting about Ferguson and Staten Island? Why don't metal bands stand for anything anymore? When did we reach this point in society where it's unpatriotic to question our military or our police? Why are so goddamned proud to just fall in line?

Martin Luther King said in one of his speeches (not included in the movie) that, "history will not reflect back on this time of unrest and remember the evil that was done, or the viciousness of the bad… but the appalling silence of the good".

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